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Dear Mira, you are the only one who knows how truly crazy I am. You know me out and in. We have met when I am still an innocent girl (you have to admit it ) before I experienced that so called "culture shock" during our matriculation life. You know how drastically I changed. You know how crazy I can be literally. You know how havoc I can be. You know how moody I can be. But you never afraid of it. Instead, you help me to control my craziness and my mood swing. And thanks to you, I always save myself from a big humiliation. I don't know whether you still remember those moments. The recent one, surely the call that you receive on 4 am. When you strongly reject my crazy intention to make my confession. Fuhh, I really owed you the big one.  Dear Mira, if one day, you and I never spoke to each other anymore, may ALLAH forbid it, I have to ask a lawyer to interdict you because you know lots of my secrets. Hehehehehehe. Just kidding. A million memories, thousand j...

life is too short to be waste life is too short to make an enemy life too short to think about the past life is too short to sit around and doing nothing believe me, pals because I speak from the truth because I speak from the pain because I speak from the experience I learnt my lesson enough for me not to waste my life anymore for me to easily forgive people's mistake  for me to beg for a forgiveness for me to let go the past for me to keep move on with life for me let the memory in heart not in mind I may look cheerful to you I may look strong to you I may look optimist to you but what make who I am today you will wish not to have it my dark and saddest past I will not regret it because all of those pain make the strong and the optimist me this is hurdle that I need to pass this is my journey I shall not regret what i had done with my life because the best lesson is from the bitter experience and once for all I belie...

Alhamdulillah !!!! Finally, I did it. When I read the message sent by Prof Jamal at night market, I'm speechless for a while. And, certainly the tears coming down. My eyes almost pop out. Same goes with my dad too. When I told him about the news , he looked shocked and nervously finding his spec to read the message. Hence, today the father and daughter selling bakso with red and Mashimaro eyes. Hehehehehe. How silly we are. After 6 years of ups and down. After every phase that I had been through. People may say that its nothing; just finishing what I have should be a long time ago. But for me, this is a great news and evidence how much ALLAH loved me. What I have been through definitely will not be same like others and some had experience more difficult thing. But, the 6 years journey for finishing my degree really a sweet-bitter pain experiences for me. To those who never know what I'm going through maybe not understand why I felt so blessed and happy. But to those who kno...

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan Bulan penuh kerahmatan Bulan penuh keampunan Buat mereka yang menghayati sepenuhnya Marhaban Ya Ramadhan Datangmu setahun sekali Penghulu segala bulan Bulan A-Quran diturunkan Dan malammu adanya malam Lailatur Qadar Satu malam yang terbaik dari Seribu malam di bulan lain nukilan ermahida

Terima kasih guru Untuk setiap ilmu yang diajar Untuk setiap didikan yang diberi Untuk setiap bait-bait kata yang dikongsi Terima kasih guru Tanpa pernah mengenal jemu Engkau setia dan ligat memberi Segala ilmu untuk dihadam oleh medulla oblongataku Terima kasih guru Dengan rela kutelaah formula-formula Yang hampir membakar cereberumku Terima kasih guru Dengan ikhlas kau mengenakan segala daya yang ada Untuk menggerakkan aku dari keadaan statikku Tanpa jemu kau membekalkan segala tenaga Agar aku dapat bergerak laju Terima kasih guru Kau umpama nucleus Sedaya upaya cuba Mengekalkan electron pada orbitnya Walau banyak penghadang yang menghalang Terima kasih guru untuk segalanya Terima kasih buat...

No news is good news.This is the popular saying,you know. This saying means that if we did not hear any news from someone means that they and hopefully they are in a good health/condition.So, we can assume that all is well.  These days, I repeatedly say this in my mind. It's not that I wanna be a busybody one. But, I bet everyone in their right mind, will wanna know what actually happens if they know someone close to them have felt sick. Especially, when the news is told to you personally.  At first, I really try to calm myself. Maybe he did not have an energy to reply my whats-sap or messages. I really try my best to put myself in his shoes. Nevertheless, I think it's been too much. At least, just a word "okay" or "I'm fine" , its enough for me. I don't have high expectation.  So, when I complain about this to my bestie, she just replied with this saying; no news is good news , you know. Yeah, maybe she's right. No news is goo...

Yeah, its true this is my blog and I'm the only owner but if you really think everything here is about  me you are absolutely wrong bukan semua post menggambarkan apa yang aku rasa atau apa yang aku alami lebih-lebih lagi bila yang  labelnya nukilan syahdu kadang-kadang ianya adalah refleksi  apa yang aku sedang baca apa yang aku sedang tonton dan adalah sesekali tentang apa yang aku rasa sebenarnya dan sebagai peringatan kalau sudah namanya nukilan syahdu ianya mestilah ada kaitan dengan puisi dan sastera dan sifat sastera itu sendiri bukanlah semuanya tersurat pasti ada yang tersirat perlu kefahaman yang tinggi untuk memahami apa yang aku tulis don't be simply taken as what it is Oh yeah dan peringatan juga tak bermaksud if I talked about a guy doen not means that guy is my lover or my kekasih  I have lots of guy friends and every one of them is special to me same goes with my girl friends ...

Dear my sister Najihah, I wish you the best for your SPM;s results. Whatever the result is, never lose faith A good results in SPM  as the people said is the good start for a better future but frankly speaking, its NOT a good results will not guarantee a good future because what FUTURE hold for you is still a SECRET that keep by the ALMIGHTY So, dear sister I wanna you to keep your head held high never compare the results with others whatever it is your result especially don't compare it among the siblings every one of us have their own hurdles and destiny and a reminder to you my dear sister you already decide what is your path do not think about what others get try the best what exactly in front of you do the best but keep in mind try to live your life to the fullest STUDY HARD PLAY HARD  and last but not least, remember always I will always support you you may think that I try to get you into something but...

#KisahKetiga Junior (J): Macam mana akak boleh kenal dengan hubby akak ni.  Senior (S) : Kisah kitorang sebenarnya macam kelakar nak diceritakan. Banyak sangat belok sana sini. J:Alah, ceritalah kak. Tak kisah kot.  Banyak kot masa yang ada. S:Okay. Akak cerita yang shot version punya. Actually, akak kenal dengan hubby akak nie waktu belajar dekat U. Kitorang sama persatuan Waktu tu akak tangah bercinta dengan orang lain.  Kawan bilik hubby akak nielah. Entah macam mana, dia boleh jadi orang tengah . Bila kitorang bergaduh, dialah jadi tukang refereenya. Dan kebetulan selalu jumpa waktu persatuan, hubby akak nie selalulah jugak jadi tong sampah dengar masalah akak. Then, bila akak putus dengan ex akak waktu tu,  jarang jumpa dengan hubby akak. Lamalah juga lost contact. Nak dijadikan cerita, kitorang berjumpa semula waktu wedding kawan persatuan kitorang. Waktu tu barulah bertukar phone number. Tapi waktu tu akak dah t...

a very inspiring quote  somehow, it reminds me of Lord Of The Ring movie at the last scene when they want to attack Mordour  Aragorn said the his people "A day may come when the courages of main fails........But it is not this day" sometimes, i felt to give up every time, i felt that i done but it always a time when i tell to myself I cant give up yet because i never really push myself I cant said that I cant do it anymore because i never tried the best i could That is why Im still here not because of my ego not because of others and absolutely not because  what im afraid people thinking about me it just simply because this was my first love this was my first dream  after i realize the truth about the life and afterall  im still here because i wanna telling myself that I can do it when I really determined and focus

Ada apa dengan merdeka Jika sebenarnya hati masih dijajah Ada apa dengan merdeka Jika anak bangsa terus dibelenggu minda penjajah Aku bukan anti kemajuan Aku juga bukan anti merdeka Aku juga seperti yang lain Lebih menggemari Hip Hop dari Dondang Sayang Lebih memilih NST dari Utusan Namun Kemerdekaan ini buat aku terpikir Semakin aku menginjak dewasa Erti kemerdekaan ini Semakin pudar kurasakan Sambutannya sekadar melepaskan batuk di tangga Tidak seperti di waktu diniku Begitu beerti kurasakan kemerdekaan Semuanya bagai keliru Ada apa dengan merdeka Jika sebenarnya pemikiran kita masih lagi dijajah Generasi muda semakin jauh dari kemerdekaan Mereka lebih kenal Taylor Swift dari Dato Maharajalela lebih kenal BIG BANG dari Bintang Tiga Mungkin Jika ditanya siapakah TUNKU Mungkin tiada siapa yang tahu Ah Sebenarnya semakin lama kita merdeka Semakin jauh kita dar...

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welcome to my dreamland malam ini entah angin apa datang menyapa terasa sangat-sangat nak post about my dreams bukan dreams apa2 pun tapi impian yang akan cuba untuk dilaksanakan insha allah kalau masih diberi kesempatan dan rezki umur dari ALLAH so, izinkanlah tuan nlog nak cerita apa impian tuan punya blog ini yang the latest biasalah impian semua orang berubah-ubah hope u allz enjoy hehehehehe post kali ini memang hanyalah idaman dan akan diusahakan untuk menjadi satu kenyataan... Insha allah...

aku :  Ingat nanti aku nak bawak adik2 aku pergi nengok Panda  kawan aku ;  hek eleh, dah banyak duit sangat ker apa engko nie.... dari duk bazir duit nak tengok Panda,  ada lebih baik engkau pergi sedekah dekat budak2 ngemis tepi jalan tue ada faedahnya aku : siapa kata aku membazir,  at least aku jana ekonomi negara apa kawan aku : yalah sangat jana ekonomi negara entah2 guna untuk *********** ( * tidak mewakili pada apa2 , terserah kepada imaginasi pembaca) aku : kau ni pandai jer kan, mana kau tahu  kau bukannya kerja kat bahagian perbendaharaan negara kerja pun belum lagi suka hati jer keluar statement  ingat sikit awak tu tengah puasa jangan main cakap jerrr tahan sikit nafsu nak bercakap tu kawan aku :  ini yang malas sembang ngan engko nie asyik nak smash aku jerr banyak ragam sebenarnya kawan2 nie ada yang pro ...